I’m 80. Is This All There Is?

20 02 2026

Today – February 20, 2026 — is my 80th (!!) birthday.

Ten years’ ago, my blog topic was “Becoming 70 – Not over any Hill Yet.” And. Yes. Life was Grand!!

I was living in Mexico with my partner/friend/significant other who, during subsequent years, became my husband. (Side note: check out the three blog entries about the experience of being an “immigrant” marrying in the United Kingdom!) We had Grand Adventures, traveling throughout Mexico, UK, and Europe, often on a motorcycle (Note: it rains a lot in the UK!). But, alas, my five-years-younger husband transitioned in 2023. I miss him, as his music (and our laughter) filled our home daily.

I am, again, on my own.

As they say, “Old age ain’t for sissies.”

Early into my ‘70s, my left ear developed odd sounds – gurgling, hollowness, tintinitis, and then nothing/no sound at all. After about two years’ of visiting an Ear/Nose/Throat doctor and various treatments, the doctor finally admitted there was nothing she could do and suggested an MRI. A tumor had destroyed the auditory nerve. Evaluations by neurologists in both Mexico and the USA determined that this was apparently a meningioma – fairly common, normally benign, and slow-growing. They all recommended, because of my age, to do nothing except monitor its growth with an MRI twice/year. As I have Medicare, I did this in the USA. Silly me, I expected the neurologists to tell me if it was growing. This information was probably in the wordy, doctor-ese written summaries of information, but until last year, I was blissfully unaware that the tumor started at 3 cm (a little over one inch) and was now 5.5 cm (nearly two inches).

I had been noticing more dizziness/light-headedness but blamed it on “old age”.

The neurologist stated that something must be done. The tumor was dangerously close to my brain stem. If it continued growing, I could become completely paralyzed, blind, or dead.  I won’t go into details, but after researching neurologists and options, with me at nearly age 80, doctors in Colorado performed an over-eight-hour surgery on my brain in December.

Family and friends have been awesome – I have lived with my daughter and family in Colorado for nearly three months. Family and friends have chauffeured me to follow-up appointments. I’m preparing to return home to Guanajuato, Mexico, next week.

Life has certainly changed. I’m no longer doing Spartan or 5K races. Just walking from the living room to the bedroom is a challenge. The tumor not only caused the deafness (not repairable) and vestibular/balance issues but was also wrapped around nerves controlling my ability to swallow, and these were damaged during surgery.  They say I’m lucky, as I can eat and drink anything as long as it’s small bites, chewed thoroughly, and swallowed “mindfully,” so not to go into my windpipe. (They floated the idea of a feeding tube!)

I’m lucky and appreciative and yet a bit resentful. My last surgery was tonsillitis at age 10, when I enjoyed popsicles afterwards. Prior to this current operation, I felt healthy. My only pills were vitamin supplements. (Now, still no meds, but I can’t even swallow a pill.) I lived alone with my furry family (two MexiMutts and four street cats). I was hiking with friends (although invitations stopped after my unsuccessful attempt to hop over a stream; some cuts and bruises, but I was able to hike out. However, I’m certain they had visions of dragging me on a make-shift stretcher).

Sooooo – as I approached and lived my 70s, life was still vibrant and exciting – “Not over any hill yet”!

Entering 80s, it’s “WTF??!! Where did this all these years go?!” My mind is still 30s, 40s, 50s. But, alas, the body is not: Spots on my hands. Wrinkled skin. Pudgy belly. Slower reflexes. Balance issues.

I used to marvel at the things my mother, born in 1916, had witnessed: horse-and-buggies to motor cars; first airplanes, computers….Now, I can rememberwhen a fax machine was pure magic (send and receive a document same day!). Computers, including a tour with the computer filling an entire room, and we wore dust-proof clothing — today we hold this same ability in one hand. The tragedy of Kent State. and Columbine. And: AI!  I also remember when democracy, although not perfect, was not in jeopardy – but that’s a different topic.

I wonder what will amaze my grandchildren when they’re in their 80s?

My mother lived independently until she died at 96. I would get frustrated with her. I’m now empathizing. And, as my high school classmates and other peers are dying, I understand why all mom’s friends were younger.

Life is more challenging – to walk safely, swallow without choking (even wine!), just getting around….

Is this all there is? 

Obviously – – Yes.

And perhaps life’s now moving over the hill, but I’m grateful – grateful for the good times and the joy and the memories; for the ability to continue to live in my own home; for time, food, and drink with family and friends; for independence.

I plan to live – and appreciate — every day.

(And. I’m certain that The Next Grand Adventure will be even better than these amazing past 80 years.)

Me, through the ages;

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The Interrogation — oops — Interview One More Time

15 06 2018

It’s been three weeks since we saw our heroes leaving the UK Registry office carrying a list of additional required documentation (passport photos and proof of residence consisting of a council tax or energy bill because providing title to their house was not sufficient).

So. Here we are on June 5, back at the Registry Office. As required, before coming to this meeting, we confirmed and paid for the wedding venue on a date well past the up-to-70-days waiting period: August 28.

We’re feeling confident because our previous interviewer had said that all we’d need were the photos and proof of residence, although we again brought along everything (plus some).

Promptly at the scheduled time, 4:00 pm, we are greeted by Louise, another of the personnel in the Department of Marriages and Civil Partnerships. Her style is totally different from Carol’s three weeks ago. And, since we were unable to complete the previous interview (and, thus, did not pay for it), there were no notes from that meeting.

Complete Start Over.

Louise begins with me individually. After accepting my new photo and comparing it, me, and my current passport, she begins.

All questions relate to Peter – his full name (why no middle name?), birth date, occupation, previous occupation, about his life. Because, I suppose – do I really know this person I’m hoping to marry?

Then she moves to my details. Have I gone by any other name? Duh. This is not my first rodeo. And to husband-Jim’s death certificate. It’s déjà vu of the last interview: “Why does the death certificate say Mary R. Denton rather than Mary Denton Jordan?”

“I don’t know, it’s the way Colorado did it. Here’s my birth certificate showing name Mary Raye Denton.” Having been through this before, I quickly produce what worked the last time: bank card with name Mary R. Jordan.

“Oh, this won’t do. We need to see a government-issued card.”

After several back/forths, Louise excuses herself to check with a superior, documents in-hand. Eventually, they agree that I am, indeed, the same Mary R. Jordan, Mary Raye Denton, and Mary Denton Jordan.

Then, to our place of residence.I tell her the address, carefully explaining that because this is a “holiday home,” there is no mail delivery. “That’s fine,” she assures me. “We just need to know where you’re living.”

We, naturally, must show proof of address. During the last visit, we could not use the Council Tax bill which includes both our names because it is mailed to Peter’s sister at her address, not ours. Which of course has — No mail delivery. We had provided the title to the house, but that was not acceptable. They needed a current energy bill. It’s issued quarterly (most recently, February 22), and I receive it online. So I’d called EDF, the energy company, to find out when the next bill would arrive. June 7, two days after this appointment. The EDF lady kindly agreed to provide an interim bill. It arrived, I downloaded to a memory stick and went to the local library for printing. So I confidently hand her this document.

“Why is only your name on this?”

“Because it comes to my email address.”

“We need something showing Peter’s name at this address.”

“Well, I have title to the property.”

“Yes. That will do.”

I just smile. I feel like screaming! It didn’t “do” last visit – otherwise I wouldn’t have wasted half a day on the phone, downloading the bill, having someone drive me to the library, and then figuring out how to use their printer.

Having (finally) satisfied these legal requirements – so far – she states that we both may need to be available for further interviews or perhaps a home visit. “You will be here during the next 70 days?” My heart drops. I’m flying to the USA to take my granddaughter to New York City to celebrate her 10th birthday. I may be out of the UK as long as two weeks. Louise frowns. “Maybe there won’t be any problems. Or maybe they can work out the schedule. If not, you’ll have to start this entire process over again.”

She thanks me and asks Peter to come in, alone.

I again remind her that we receive no mail delivery at our address. Again, I’m reassured that this will not present a problem.

Peter flows through the interview with flying colors. After all, I’m the possible-problem immigrant from the USA.

Exactly at the end of the allotted one-hour interview, Louise escorts us to the payment window, £46 each, She informs us that the Plymouth UK office is now officially out of this process; it’s all up to the London Home Office. Everything we need to know is in this leaflet, Home Office Referral and Investigation Scheme. (Interesting title. Especially the word “scheme.”)

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We walk out of their office approximately 5:15 pm.

The leaflet explains that “The Home Office is taking tough action to tackle sham marriages….” It also states that it may decide to investigate further and that “The Home Office will make this decision and inform you of it in writing before the end of the 28 day notice period.” (Italics mine.)

In writing.

To our address.

Where we do not receive mail.

Probably to be returned as “undeliverable.”

Think this might be a Red Flag to the Home Office?

Danger! Danger! Danger! Sham address! Sham marriage!

Permission denied!

Lovely.

And, of course, the Plymouth office is now closed.

Promptly at 9:00 am the next day, I call to see if they can put a different mailing address on our application – perhaps get it changed before it gets to London. I am informed I need to talk with someone in the “marriage and ceremony team.” Not available, of course, but someone – yet a different person – calls back in late afternoon. After being told the previous day that this office is now completely “hands off” the process – and reading in the Scheme leaflet that “Staff at the Designated Register Office you attended or wrote to will not be able to tell you how your referral is progressing” — this lady on the phone says not to worry. “They write us at the same time, and we call to let you know.”

Needless to say, I’m not confident.

To be continued (once again)….





Mesa Mariposa ~ Butterfly Table

26 07 2015

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder….

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Alex in our Frieda Room with Mesa Mariposa. The wet-bar he created from antique doors is in the background

From a mammoth tree somewhere deep in the jungle of Quintana Roo — to a “discard pile” in Puerto Morelos – to the carpenter-artistry of Guanajuato’s Alejandro Vazquez — to our living room in Casa de Colores on Calle Temezcuitate….

When Peter and I spotted an unusual piece of wood among the scraps at a carpentry shop in the jungle outside the fishing village of Puerto Morelos , we knew that beneath the dirt, fungi and moss beat the heart of an exceptional table top. We felt the vibes screaming to be released — it was lovely.

But the artistry of Guanajuato’s Alejandro Vazquez took it to the next level, creating stunning art with function.

In the scrap pile....

In the scrap pile….

David, Ignacio and Gama, the wood butchers/artists in Puerto Morelos called it the Mariposa due to its butterfly shape. We agreed to their ridiculously reasonable price, which included cleaning and leveling. High-five!

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We then loaded Mariposa, other rare finds in wood, and our belongings, into Suzibelle-of-the-Jungle our Suburu (another story) to drive a highly eventful 2,614 km through Quintana Roo, Chiapas, Tabasco, Oaxaca, and Michoacán to our home in Guanajuato, central Mexico, so Alex could work his magic.

2614 kilometers ~ 1625 miles from Puerto Morelos to Guanajuato

Our journey: 2614 kilometers ~ 1625 miles — from Puerto Morelos to Guanajuato

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More projects are in the works – and Alex and Peter will be working together to create fine Guitars and Basses using mainly Mexican woods — but Alex’s latest creation is our Mesa Mariposa – the butterfly table.

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Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder – especially with the help of a talented artist and friend….

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Mujer de la Verdad

25 08 2013

My friend and I are vacationing where we are possibly the only non-Latin American faces on the crowded malecón, the tourist walkway beside the beach, when I discover that I’ve lost my wallet.

Near-panic ensues — I practically carry my life in that wallet.

Cell phone rings.

¿Es esto Maria Jordan?

Si.

Fast deluge of Spanish I don’t understand.

Working together, we figure it out and meet.

I have named my anonymous caller, Mujer de la Verdad — Woman of Truth. She found my number and, using her own phone minutes, called to return the wallet and its contents.

My friends tell me I’m crazy to live in Mexico. Drug wars. Beheadings. Murders.

I continue to find Beauty. Joy. Peace. And honest, caring People.

I am grateful.

“Genuinely good people are like that. The sun shines out of them. They warm you right through.”  ― Michael Morpurgo, Alone On A Wide Wide Sea

“Genuinely good people are like that. The sun shines out of them. They warm you right through.”
― Michael Morpurgo, Alone On A Wide Wide Sea





Here’s Charlie….

18 02 2010

By popular demand – here’s Charlie.

 Actually, this delightful beach dog has now been adopted by Brett and Chris (Dive In Puerto Morelos). They will tell you his name is now Junior – but he stops by my place occasionally on his way to the beach — so he’s still Charlie.